2 years
2 years ago I woke up to and endless chain of messages on my voicemail…. I can still hear them ringing in my head like it was yesterday…. I can still feel my heart beginning to race faster and faster as I realized what the messages were going to ultimately mean.
You were gone.
No more, “Hi, Laur” heard on the phone…. no more listening to you sing weird oldies songs… no more stories about when I was little… no more complaints about your knees… no more holding onto resentment……………..
I’m not going to spend the day crying….. I need to find a way to turn this day into something uplifting rather than upsetting. I always admire Kellie so much for their “Miles Day” when they celebrate little Miles’s short life….. I need to find a way to do the same.
I think I need to plant flowers….. My mom had the best green thumb, which I unfortunately did NOT inherit. 
Love you Mom, no matter what the past was filled with…..
oxoxo
Laur
Hey Lauren..I just wanted to come on here and send you some love. It’s been 12 years since I’ve lost my mom and even though I was only 11 years old, I still remember everything about her and I still go through my emotions especially when I’m going through difficult times. But, what I do to pull myself together is think of how she is with me in spirit and try to follow her example of love to my own family. Hope your day is filled with peace and joy as you find a way to celebrate your mom’s life… xoxoxo, Dahlia aka SugarInk
I wish I could come down there and hug you right now. It’s been 12 years since I lost my best friend, and I know how much I miss him and think about him every day. I hope you got to plant some flowers for her today.
((((Lauren)))) I hope you find some beautiful flowers to plant to remember your mom by
Your post brought tears to my eyes. Hope today is special for you
xoxo
-Meg
It’s funny how a total stranger can be brought to tears after reading another total stranger’s blog…we’ve never met…we probably never will…we don’t live near each other or have any person in common. But we have a passion and obsession for scrapbooking that we share. So with all that intro. finished, I want you to know how deeply I feel for your loss. I lost my dad at a really early age, but have my mom….doesn’t mean I’m a perfect daughter or that I appreciate and treat her how she deserves….we’re all human….the important thing is we try and we learn….every day. I hope you find some peace with her passing — not that I have any tips in that area. And I hope you enjoy the little “gifts” — a vision of your mom, a spirtual presence, a memory….hope those get you through the rough patches.
xo Colleen
Hi Lauren!! It has been forever since I stopped by, but I couldn’t read and not post. (((hugs))) I hope that you made it through the day and that you were able to do something special to remember your mom.
- Estee